I drew this picture this morning to remind myself that I have come a long way from where I started.
It says" Deep inside, resting dormantly, I've had a box labeled 'KOREA.' This held all my feelings about being adopted, being different, being abandoned, being Korean. Only sometimes did I realize it was there. "Why is your face so flat?" "Your mother didn't want you?" "I'm sorry. Your birth mother falsified some information. We cannot find her.""
"This trip is about opening that box without fear and discovering what is inside, holding it with peace, and maybe not learning the whole truth, but knowing my own."
Our guide says we can request photocopies of our paper work to translate it ourselves later.
This is the most emotional day for everyone in the group. Glad I'm with others going through the same thing.
Wow. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts through this process and reminding us all about the many "layers" of emotion in adoption.
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